YOU think you know me.

I was thinking about earlier this month, when I text messaged the half-assed morning show asking them to wish me a happy birthday and they didn't (they did last year without hesitation) and I was thinking about why they might have ignored my text message. The text machine thing might not have received it, but I kinda doubt it because i have text messaged them other times and they ignored them more recently. I think that one of the reasons why they possibly ignored them is because they have something against new York and the fact that I took a trip to new York probably got under their skin. Whatever.. I've wanted to live in New York BEFORE I even met any of those dj's from that radio station. I'm not just living there because I think it'd be "cool"more "hip". I've wanted to live there before I even got in my car accident. There's mor opportunities out there for me. I'm not asking them to buy my fuckin airplane tickets and pay for my living arrangements or anything.. Just to mind their own fuckin business when it comes to MY LIFE DECISIONS.. I don't even see why people get so pissed off at me for wanting to move there.. They're NOT me. They don't have to live my life. I've busted my ass just to get to where I am today. EVEN MY GRANDMA told me in a phone conversation with her that there was NOTHING here for me in Minnesota and I "BELONGED" in new York.. I told her that I would never get to new York because she'd probably die before anyone could help me, and she claimed "amanda'll get you there." *twiddles fingers* right. So I'm doing most of this myself because when I asked Amanda about it- she said to me,"well alright.. What do you want me to do?" start with advocating. She used to speak to me on the phone all the time when my grandma died.. Then she stopped answering her phone and returning calls, so I wasn't gonna be a burden. Man.. The new pca is so dumb, he tried to vacuum my apartment and the vacuum wasn't plugged in and he said to me,"why isn't this working?" then I kind scoffed at him and said,"YOU NEED TO PLUG THE VACUUM IN FIRST!" then he asked what I meant and I showed him the plug, then h just blew my fuses in my apartment after he attempted to vacuum, so now I gotta call the caretaker.